I saw my GP today about my acne (again) and he has prescribed me a new set of antibiotics together with an antibiotic topical cream, and to give those 3 months to see if that works.
I have been on different antibiotics and a different cream before, but at separate times. Hopefully together they will work! And if not, he said I can be referred to the dermatologist. (Woo! I’ve been waiting to be referred for years now, haha.)
He also said recent studies have found that diet has very little impact on acne, and that my diet (prior to the elimination diet) sounded perfectly healthy and so I should keep doing that. If my diet beforehand wasn’t curing my skin, this one definitely wouldn’t.
Long story short - I don’t have to just eat fish, eggs, vegetables and quinoa any more! Woo hoo!
Now gimme some tofu! :D
- Quinoa flake porridge with a warm berry/chia seed sauce, almond butter, cinnamon, crushed walnuts and agave.
- Crayfish, avocado, spinach, romaine lettuce and lemon juice. 2x raspberry fruit leather.
- Apple slices with a cacao/agave/almond milk warm dipping sauce and pistachios.
- Buckwheat pasta spirals with homemade (vegan) basil/walnut pesto and broccoli. Honeydew melon slices.
As of today, for a month, I’m on the elimination diet! No, it’s not to lose weight, it’s to find out what an earth is causing my acne. (Seven years on and it’s only getting worse, not better.) It’s essentially a really long food intolerance test.
For a month you cut out dairy, eggs, corn, gluten, yeast, soy, sugar, peanuts, certain vegetables and fruits (tomatoes, bananas, peppers, potatoes, aubergines) and most meats if you eat them. You also can’t have cocoa! D: But luckily cacao is okay. You then slowly reintroduce each food group, one at a time, and wait for a reaction. E.g. if I reintroduce bananas and the next morning I wake up with 25 new spots - there’s a good chance my gut doesn’t like bananas.
So that’s what’s going down for a month! I’ve taken a before photo of my skin, and I’ll take another one on Monday 27th May to compare. I’m not too worried about sticking to it, I’m just worried about how awkward I’ll be when eating out. Steamed veggies and brown rice for the weirdo over here, please!
1. What do you love about your body?
Um… my eyes are pretty great? I always get complimented on those. I don’t particularly like my smile but that gets complimented too, so. And my legs are okay ~ish? Oh goodness, I suck at being positive, haha!
2. Favourite TV show?
I don’t think HIMYM is particularly funny but I do love the characters themselves… but my heart belongs to The Last Leg. (or Community! :D)
3. What are your dreams and goals for the future?
I want to be successful, but who doesn’t? :P I hope that eventually I get round to making a youtube channel and do well with that because I love my humour and want to share it with others. If that doesn’t happen, then I’d love to have a day job where every day involves being creative. I’d also like to adopt a girl from China, so many are unfortunately abandoned due to the one child policy. :(
4. Celebrity crush?
Ahaha, my tweenage love for Brendon Urie never really left, so him. Or Jared Leto. Or Angelina Jolie in Salt. I CAN’T PICK ONE sorry not sorry.
5. Beyonce or Rihanna?
Beyonce! Hands down.
6. What do you do to cheer yourself up when you’re sad?
Watch crabstickz videos, bake, tidy up, shower or talk to either Viv or Megan. :)
7. Favourite food?
The pumpkin croquette things from yo sushi. Or honey/lemon/soy/ginger salmon. Or tangerines! :D
8. Britney or Madonna?
My very first tape was Hit Me Baby One More Time, so it’s got to be Britney.
9. Something you wish you could change in your life?
My skin. 7 years of acne and it’s still showing no signs of getting better, so that. Or my fear of driving. Actually yeah, scrap the skin thing, definitely my fear of driving.
10. Favourite season of the year - and why?
I’d like to say summer because the sun makes me so happy, but seeing as in England summer is a season that doesn’t exist, I’m going to say winter because snow makes me even happier than the sun. :3
11. Your favourite song at the moment?
Supremacy - Muse. Or Cray Button by Family Force 5. :)
Okay! Now my 11 questions. I’ll tag Hannah, Aliyah and Viv… and then anyone reading this who wants to answer these questions.
- How long have you been on tumblr?
- Who is your least favourite music artist?
- Pick one restaurant you have to eat in for the rest of your life - why that one?
- If you had to be on a reality show, which one and why?
- Cats, dogs, rabbits or fish?
- Favourite breakfast?
- Favourite cartoon?
- Would you rather have hands for feet or feet for hands?
- You have the opportunity to cure world hunger, global warming or rid the world of all cancers - which one do you choose and why?
- What kind of elderly person do you want to be?
- And I know this a cop out, but do you know how awesome I think you are? ;D
…but I don’t want to seem creepy, haha! (Curtis I’m looking at you… o_O)
The majority of the messages I get either start or end with something like “I know you’re probably super busy” (nope, I’m always free to answer things! :) ) or “Don’t want to sound creepy but I love your blog so much…” (this isn’t me gloating, promise!!) and it’s all lovely but honestly, I’m not scary/busy!
I’m just another girl on tumblr, who in her head is best friends with so many people on my dashboard even if I’ve never really spoken to them in case I come off as weird. But does it matter? We’re all weird! Let’s be weird together!!!
P.S. sorry again for the lack of posts recently. I’ve been comfort eating a lot and don’t really feel like taking a picture of the crappy food that coincidentally makes me feel even more crappy. I’ll charge my camera overnight and get back in to the swing of things first thing in the morning. Then I won’t feel guilty about posting my intake! I haven’t forgotten about you guys asking about that, I simply haven’t been eating well enough for me to be happy about posting it. :(
Love you all! And if I haven’t replied to your message, it’s because I’m lazy, not because I’m ignoring you, I do always get round to answering my asks, promise! :D <333
P.P.S. Guess I am doing more personal posts after all… oops!
It’s a simple thing. And it’s not as if I lie all the time - I just don’t say anything at all.
You know if you see someone beautiful, and you think it in your head, but you don’t say anything? This is what I’m trying to go against. ~Tell that person. It’s okay to compliment. It’s okay to be honest and kind and be open with your opinions and your feelings.
Take, for example - I saw one of my closest (if not, the closest) friends over the weekend and she’s lovely. She’s beyond lovely and I honestly don’t know where I’d be without her. So I told her this. I said: “I’m so glad and thankful I met you,” and later, once I’d left, I texted her telling her how much I love her. You’d be surprised how big of a thing that it is for me. I can’t even tell my family I love them.
I’m bad at expressing my feelings. I never want to appear weak or vulnerable and I’m very ‘masculine’ in the sense that I don’t like to talk about my problems but I’m getting better at it. It’s a slow process, as will be the majority of changes I need to make, but I’ve taken the first few steps. The hardest steps. I’ve left my footprints, now it’s time to keep on walking.
I know what works for my body, I know what makes me feel good and that is all that’s important.
Vegan, vegetarian, pescatarian… does it really matter?
I’m still not going to eat meat and I’m re-quitting dairy due to intolerance issues, but if I accidentally eat something that has traces of milk in, I’m not going to cry.
Eggs are still a-okay. They’re from a neighbour’s chickens so I know the chickens are happy and that the eggs aren’t forced so still have optimum nutrition.
Gah, I’m justifying my choices again. (Force of habit. I received threats in my ask box when I transitioned from vegan to vegetarian. If I get any more threats, you will be blocked and reported. No one should have to tolerate that.)
I still have acne issues, and despite trying 20+ different treatments, tablets, creams, diet changes etc. I’m still stuck with acne, and my doctor said I should try one piece of oily fish (as I have very, very dry skin) a week to see if that would help. I’m going to try it, and if it doesn’t work, then I’ll stop eating fish.
But for those of you who still adore labels, yes, I am still 90% vegan.
Thank you to everyone who has been kind to me - the majority of you are! I hope you are all happy and well. :D ♥
P.S. I totally understand if you unfollow me if you’re a devout vegan, but please - no threats.
As you may know, I’ve decided to leave university and pursue something different - however I still have 8 days left here, and in those few days I’ll be using up whatever food I have left.
(I.E. It’s probably going to be the same kind of food day in, day out. You don’t want to see that, do you?)
I’ll be back home from December 5th, and from there on in blog posts will be much more regular and with a wider variety of food - not just “5 Minute Baked Banana Oatmeal” again and again, ha!
Thank you for your patience and help with my coming to this decision. I hope you all are well. :)
So I’m pretty sure I’m going to leave university and pursue the life that I actually want, dream of and feel destined to do. I feel so much more calm already - soon I might actually feel happy with myself! ;D
It’s only five weeks until I’m home. My tenancy agreement doesn’t run out until July though, so I might come back up to Sheffield and gain experience in a big city whilst I still can but just not go to university any more. I’m pretty attached to the city already, and a few people, so it would be a shame to leave that behind.
Anyway, I’m smiling, I’m pretty content and I feel like my whole body has given a huge sigh of relief. I’m in the best place I’ve been in for years. The difficult part is staying in this mindset.
I hope the rest of you are all as stress-free as I am right now. :) ♥
One month of university = done! :D
I know the names of each building, I know how to get to each lecture hall, I know where the short cuts are, I know how the library coding system works, where the health centre is and how to use the gym equipment. I’m all set, really!
I haven’t been so lucky job wise but I’m not going to stop trying, I just have to hope more come up in January. I’m enjoying my course so far though, other than the business modules which are… to put eloquently - bleh. Just bleh.
But one of my best friends is coming down (up? I keep on forgetting I’m not in the south any more…) to see me and stay over and we’re going to make a lemon meringue pie so that’ll be awesome.
I know, I know, I’m still being inconsistent with this blog and I am sorry, but I’ve been having a lot of the same meals again and again as it’s cheaper, and I’m not sure you’d want seven photos of the same pasta dish. Yeeeeah.
Anyway. Hope all is well with everybody! Good luck and break a leg to anyone who needs it. :)
I just assumed I wouldn’t get ill as I eat healthily, wrap up warm, don’t drink etc. but alas that is sadly not the case! Three rolls of tissue, two boxes of decongestants and one tub of Vaseline later I’m almost at the point of being able to breathe through my nose again.
I splurged on some nice orange juice so I can OD on vitamin C and also bought a chocolate twist from Sainsbury’s bakery to treat my soul. The soul is as important as the immune system, trust me.
I also made some courgette and lentil soup that was a) ridiculously cheap b) ridiculously easy and c) ridiculously healthy, too. Seeing as we’re getting less and less daylight hours, I’m going to have to buy a new lamp to photograph dinner meals/recipes! I’ve got quite a few lined up, so sorry for the abundance of just breakfast posts! There’ll be a mix again soon.
Hopefully I’ll be as right as rain by Tuesday as I have my first assessed kitchen practical, which in theory I should ace seeing as baking is my favourite of all the past times. :D
I hope all is well with everyone - and if you’re ill too, I’m sending you love and hugs. (And snotty kisses if you’re lucky.)
Did anyone else watch the final tonight? If you haven’t, and you watch the show - I won’t ruin it for you and tell you who won! But the person who ~did win deserved it. :3
Two out of the three finalists were in their last year of university, so provided the show continues to be successful, I could be up to their standard by that point, too.
So that’s another thing to add to the wish list!
I know I’m studying nutrition and so technically I should be shunning cakes and all baked goods as if they were the devil - but I’d rather have a little tummy pudge and a brownie than the body of a fitness model.
As long as I am healthy and happy, that’s what really matters! It’s taken a while but I’m slowly realising it’s okay to not always eat ‘healthily’. To enjoy oneself is far healthier.
I’ve already told my mum that as soon as I’m home for Christmas I’m baking as much as possible - starting with queen of puddings! :D So come Christmas, expect many, many sweet treats…
- 2L of water a day, minimum;
- LESS SNACKS;
- Stop being a lazy bum and make healthy, photogenic meals… even if that means doing a lot of washing up;
- Exercise 5 times a week - pole fitness counts provided I do yoga that day too;
- Ask for some help with strength training so I can actually start lifting… without breaking my back;
- Yoga 5 times a week;
- Maybe invest in some (soy) protein powder?
Uni life -
- Register online so I can ‘officially’ join the societies;
- Consistently ~go to at least two societies;
- Go to course rep meetings;
- Be up by 8:30 (even if I don’t start until 4pm) and be off the computer by midnight;
- Do coursework as it is set (or at least start it on that day);
The rest of my life (…basically tumblr) -
- Finally sort out the ads;
- Buy the few essentials from my room that are missing (bin, whiteboard, duster etc.);
- Hoover, disinfect and sweep flat once a week, mop once a fortnight;
- Vlog once a week;
- Go to a vegan meet up;
- See two films;
- Read every night;
- If I don’t get this job - apply for something else;
- Arrange at least one outing with my classmates;
- Fork out for a few text books.
I think that just about covers everything! I’m normally pretty bad with sticking to lists and plans but I’ve surprised myself since coming to uni - I’ve signed up for plenty of things, completed tasks on time, somehow kept the flat clean (well, my bedroom - the rest of the place is due to my messy flatmates) and been confident around new people. So, in theory - the rest should come easy!
Posts will be back to normal as of tomorrow - promise! ;D
A little like comic-con, we all come dressed as our favourite food and then have big group healthy cooking sessions with a mass baking session at the end.
We’d all get goodie bags with nut butters, fresh herbs, quinoa, oats, dark chocolate, coconut oil… and instead of looking at comic books we’d all fawn over cook books and food porn.
There’s so many of you on tumblr who I want to meet and I really wish I could cook with all of you! If any of you can get to Sheffield, England then maybe this could be an actual thing? ;D
If not… well, it’s a nice idea.
P.S. I have dibs on the almond costume.
I’m no longer 100% vegan. (Don’t hate me just yet.)
I’m going to be 75% vegan. So yes, technically a vegetarian. And I know militant vegans out there are going to say that there is no justifiable reason not to be a vegan, but please hear me out.
I hate veganism. Okay - maybe not ~hate. But I put so much pressure on myself in every aspect of my life that this is just another added pressure. I’m constantly asking myself if it’s okay to do this or that, if people will judge me for this or that and it’s tiring, it really is. Being a vegetarian who eats vegan most of the time is a lot better than someone with an omnivorous diet, right? I’m still going to be having almond milk and all that jazz.
You can go ahead and judge me, but I’m tired of worrying about other people’s judgements. I’m doing this for me and that’s what’s most important here. I never do anything for me. It’s always about everyone else and that’s precisely why I became vegan.
As of September (as many of you know) I’ll be at university, and part of my course involves cookery. I was told they accommodate vegetarians but it’s highly unlikely they’ll accommodate vegans. I want to be able to taste my food and enjoy the cooking process without having to worry whether or not I can eat said food.
Is this decision selfish? Yes, yes it is. That’s the beauty of it. I’m doing something for me. Maybe after university I’ll become a vegan again. But if I do, it’s because I want to. Not because of pressures put in place by other people.
Thank you for everyone who has been supportive.
I’ve never tried to write a bucket list before, but I know there are so many things I want to do and I know I need to document it, so here it is!
- Write a recipe book.
- Jump out of a plane. - booked!
- Go to California for my 21st.
- Live in California before turning 25.
- Have a body I’m proud of.
- Run a 1/2 marathon.
- Run a marathon.
- Complete a charity mission.
- Be fit enough to be a personal trainer.
- Become a personal trainer and/or yoga instructor.
- Be part of an equality protest.
- Dye my hair bright red.
- Read 52 books in 52 weeks.
- Compliment a stranger every day for a year.
- Make this blog successful enough to be on the tumblr ‘spotlight’ list.
- Take pole dancing lessons.
- Take burlesque lessons.
- Have a cat.
- Have the bravery and confidence to model. (Don’t worry - I don’t want to be a size 0 model! My face is far too commercial for that. Besides, I’m enjoying the size I am now. :) )
- To visit Australia.
- To visit Hong Kong.
- To backpack through France.
- To be fluent in Spanish.
- To work for myself.
- To visit Hannah. (and have a jumping photo with her.)
- Take a food photography course and suck it up, splashing out on an expensive camera and photoshop.
Undoubtedly this list will grow, but for now, I think this is a pretty good start.